Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Alkaline Trio breaks my heart

When I started listening to Alkaline Trio (almost) seven years ago, I never expected them to have as great an impact on my life as it has. I fell in love with "From Here to Infirmary," and quickly back-filled my collection, scouring Napster for b-sides which I finally heard many of on the "Remains" release last year. I've been to many shows, the best shows I've been to with my friends Josh and Chris. If you look closely, you might see me in the Halloween show DVD. Chris is right there. He can point us out. I can clearly remember the day we were driving around the suburbs and Chris and I had a great debate about "Cringe" lyrics -- Chris was correct but there aren't many bands where you'll argue about the lyrics of a song and feel bad when you mis-understood them. Its a good indicator when you take the time to find exactly what it is your band is singing about. When that band can provide such powerful emotion that you can nearly lose consciousness at a show. When a band can take you into and out of a year long depression. These things mean something. Well, they mean something close to me.

I have had the unfortunate experience of listening to the new album, "Agony and Irony" all the way through. I can't help but wonder if the band really just said "Fuck it," and felt obligated to put out a new album after three years of re-releases and re-masters. "blah, blah, blah" indeed. Save your spirit, don't listen to the new album.

I don't know what it is, but I can't get over this failure. I am angry. Mostly just angry. Not kick them in the face angry, more angry at everything having changed enough that the music just doesn't fit me anymore. They grew up -- A band can only sing about drunken heartache for so long before it becomes dull and I can only live in my angsty early-twenties for very little time. Never-the-less, I am angry that the band that I love wrote me a very bad break-up notice. I am not cool with that. Its one thing to say "Thats it! We're over!" Its a whole different story when the relationship dawdles on for too long. I will always have the Halloween show, six great albums and many other pretty-good/mostly-good shows to love.

Disclaimer: I am writing this alone in my bedroom, drinking Whiskey and reminicing about the old days.